Still Processing Day One of Boot Camp

We started our first day of boot camp for a DD relationship. Let me tell you, it was intense. It started out with a hard spanking the moment I woke up. He decided to use my hair brush which hurts much worse than his hand. After he had me sit on a wicker chair in the kitchen and we began our first homework assignment. This took longer than I had anticipated and my bottom was becoming extremely sore. I had to give up complete control which is harder than I had imagined throughout the day. By mid-day we had come to the severe spanking. It is long, intense and painful. I was reminded constantly by my HOH that is can always be worse and to realize how strong my HOH really is. By the end of this spanking I started to cry. Barely, but there was a brief break down. I am a very tough person on the outside. I keep most things bottled inside, and then slowly things build up until I explode. Anyhow, the day has been emotionally draining for me today. I am required to post a blog at least three times a week now as part of our agreement. My HOH thinks that writing it out allows me to clearly understand my thoughts. I am in college right now, so writing flows fairly easy for me. I will post more in detail soon after our completion of Boot camp and I have processed my new role and expectations for this life…